No Holding Back

I am of

car wrecks

on I-43

cold feet

on hardwood

restless sleep

burr-ground coffee

spontaneous

erections

picking at scabs

daily showers

of spare tires

manufacturer's jacks

bondo and rust

I am

malcontent

obtuse

self-imposed

lost in the sun

malleable

I am of

subway rats

of disappointment

blind inertia

misspellings

unorganized stacks

of mudbugs

etouffee

balding head

tattoos

neckties

I am

shoveling snow

changing oil

cleaning litter

retro videogames

pulp novels

hopped up

watered down

I am of

silent films

deviant art

8-hour sleep

broken abilities

family loyalty

reptile dreams

creative love

faded ambition

sleeping nude

I am

burned

arthritic

laughable

reasonable

I am of

wood and steel

pillow fur and claw shards

terrible symmetry

of submissive desires

morning back aches

eroding immunities

industrial ruin

imprecise instinct

of honorary fraternity

drunk identity

of two decades removed

overnight shifts

blurred descent

I am

congested with filth

covered in hair

rotting inside out

eager for more

ready for change

constipated

conspicuous

far sighted

I am of

spring migration

beginner barbeque

violins and distorted guitars

contained pressurization

gargoyles and birdhouses

of mid century modern

sleeping cats

sleeping lovers

Seminole spices

Bratwurst patties

I am looking forward.

3/7/10